Sunrise and Sunsets

Just discovered this interesting website www.2knowmyself.com ! Its alot on psychology stuff which sum are quite true. Sumtimes, we never 100% get over sumone we have liked before till the people u meet in the future wud be compared to the person u used to be all over with. If only i can really get over the person!Everytime i come across a picture or something he used to say or anything that reminds me of him i’d just release a deep breath and look down..

              Anyway, orientation nite wus quite good actually (apart frm the food n d disgusting newspaper game). The performances were intresting eg: a girl who sang almost exactly like leona lewis, sum guy swirling burning metal spheres with a chain, the symphony club with their ultra cool drumstick beat performance.. and the dancefloor at the end. Lol lotsa people were fooling around with silly dancemoves, at least majority didnt dance slutty. And i just loved the windy weather!

             I should so start uploading pictures in my blog before evrione gets bored to death. I may take lotsa pictures wif my best friend, canon! but im just wayyy too lazy to upload. Well im being very random n choppy rite now, guess im signing off =D. To all those being updated with my life, take care.

This was the scariest assignment ive ever done. Mainly cus evritin my group did became SO LAST MINUTE! and problems after problems kept coming up. Submission was monday morning, 8am. Basically we had to do a video presentation on a building, my group chose palace of the golden horses. Here were the probs n what we did to counter attack em:

1.We had to go there three times to finally get the interview n tour frm the building specialist guy cause they kept forgetting eventhough we made appointmentsss! ( we just kept goin till we finally got noticed)

2. When we finally got the interview, aisyah tried to piece the movie together using i movie in her mac, but the entire video in the camera went corrupt n we lost the interview…

( aisyah asked her ex to act like a guest being interviewed and WOW he CAN ACT ..scripts n answers were prepared beforehand of course making it a great interview)

3.On sunday NIGHT, aisyah passed me the videos she pieced together so that i can put in the subtitles (she stayed up for 2 days + d). when i went home n plug the thumbdrive n the whole thumbdrive was corrupted n culdnt be read by my laptop AND main comp..

I had to last minute stay overnite at her place in shah alam =O to use her mac which im totally unfamiliar wif. Just by copying n pasting the subtitles frm a document i typed em out in days before, it took me around 10pm to 4 am!!! Then we stayed up till 5.30am to choose the background songs..

4. The mac had prob wif exporting video in avi format, making the quality horrendous. So it wus saved in mpeg which of course cnt be played in microsoft (teacher’s comp). Her internet connection had a prob so we culdnt download a video converter/ vlc player.

I disturbed wayne our coll classmate by calling him during midnite n 6.50 am to ask him to help convert for us.. we both finally met up in coll around 7.50 and converted the video! by the time we burned the video into the cd, the lecturer just walked in (PHEW)

5. The cd sticker we sticked was a lil out of position so we adjusted it abit causing the silver layer of the cd to peel off… COULDNT PLAY NOW!

i ran all the way down to the shop to buy blank cds.

6. We forgot to print out the assesment form..

borrowed jason’s thumbdrive containing it, ran all the way down to printing shop n printed it!

7. OUr group being group 1 was first to present. WE made it at the very last second PHEW THANK GOD!!

         IT wus a miracle dat we completed the assignment at the very last second and the class + lecturer loved it. Yay aisyah’s video + photography skills n good recording sound system on mac comp!I did the subtitles quite badly though, sumtimes when the subtitles appear still got the words (click to enter subtiltes) woops i forgot to erase those lol.

      Im so proud of my tree i just drew for msian studies scrapbook!haha dis few weeks our assignments sumhow involve drawing trees after trees. so i guess i become quite pro d ker?but my trees arent very original. always have to refer to sumtin den onli can draw it out. =S

      For drawing com, we have started designing houses. At first, we were assigned into groups n had to measure a small building (guardhouse/ pondok etc) but my group chose a gazebo. The ironic ting was when we went to measure it, we forgot our measuring tape XDDD   BUT we had RULERS. a 15 cm ruler n a 30 cm ruler. Well make use of wat u hav rite? So if u were there in ss19 in the morning while a group of women were doing taichi/qi gong ?? u wud c 2 sad people (our 3rd member was LATE) measuring a huge pondok wif yup, plastic rulers lol. the base of the pondok was.. 5 X 75 + 45 cm! an elderly malay lady came up to us n tought we were vandalising the gazebo summore.. haiz swt.

      So aniway after measuring the pondok n drawing it on butter paper, we had to add extensions n make it a house large enuf for a single person to live in. Who knew designing a house cud take up so much time? My group chose a scale of 1 to 50 n d frus part is u cant simply tembak the size of furniture, u have to find out d standard size den onli convert to the drawing. Wen i simple tembak, my door wus like 25 cm wide in real life lol. even i can barely squeeze tru it. N d best part is since my dad’s an engineer he can correct my mistakes muahahaha. stil left the elevation views to do.. man im so lazy. its like i wasted the whole day today shoping eating sleeping n reading may zhee-lim’s book entitled sweetheart frm hell. The main character in the book is like.. my goodness. The nitemare of any boy who dates her!She vacuums up her boyfren’s money on handbags, whines bout almost evriting, lies ALOT n stalks his ex-gfs. X S n she divorced her husband b4 dat because of a lipstick!the book’s not too bad for a teenage author but it isnt my type. thx for it though yumey!

                Wow im actually blogging bout books. thats weird.its getin late now n i have to get up for coll in 4 hours plus. nites den

Today was just another day that passed by. Nothing really special. Except for my second ninjitsu lesson! We learned quite alot and Isaac joined too. So there were many locking techniques we learned, how to throw people to the ground etc.And we got to play with weapons for fun. There was this guy who is very passionate about martial arts and is quite good in ninjitsu. He’s a good teacher too! When i partnered him, he totally taught me frm scratch cus my techniques alot very blur n cacat lol. Im like a slow absorber when it comes to ninjitsu. But I felt a little weird because whenever he teaches someone, he would really look them in the eye alot and talk to them. So.. lol nvm.

    Anyway, yesterday still left me blue today. (not the T-square although i feel like snapping of the handle) I know i have to move on and im gonna have to be stronger or i’d get hurt even worse. I cant fight ice well.All I have to do is turn my back and walk away but it seems so difficult.

Today has been….. very very very very very very very very frus. OMYGOODNESS I HATE MY T-SQUARE. in case ur wondering wats a t-square, its this long ruler ting with a curved handle perpendicular to the ruler at one end to slide against the edges of drafting tables to enable u to draw perpendicular, straight n accurate lines. I know it sounds pretty cool.. it actually can be made into a sword if u just add a little perpendicular handle to the black curved handle. (argh i used perpendicular how many times d) AND sure… u can have fun with it between classes by pointing the *sword* at ur coursemates n say *Gimme ur wallet!muahahahaa* or u can use it like an imaginary cangkul OR u can use it like an axe ( zamir quotes architects carrying it look like murderers)

 BUT it finally made me snap inside today…. 0_0 (heng kei moment)

  oK basically i was sick of carrying dis really huge bag with hurtful hard handles which could contain part of my T square so i decided to stick the t square into my drawing cone together with sum drawings. I wus like ah.. finally i dunt have to carry a big bag. BUt

      problem number 1: the stupid black handle of the stupid T square sticks out of the drawing cone, disabling me frm closing the drawing cone and thus disabling the strap of the drawing cone frm functioning. So i have to hug the drawing cone on one hand with HEAVY books+file on my other hand and trying my best to not let my bag fall of my shoulders.

    problem number 2 : the stupid black handle of the stupid drawing cone can potentially poke people at certain insulting places especially wen  im carrying it in a ktm jam packed with people. So i have to walk around with the drawing cone between my knees while trying my very best to balance myself in the ktm especially n i dunt have 3 hands so..

  problem number 3 : because i cant sling the drawing cone on my shoulders due to the T-square disabling the cap frm screwing to the cone, i have to rest the cone on the ground while standing to wait for watever and the cone having a narrow base n tall height would fall.. again n again n again (countless of times) n i have to pick it up while being careful not to drop my heavy load on my other hand!

            Actually, the innocent t-square isnt the main reason y im so bengang today.(hint: I never fail to be amazed by the insensitivity of guys) but it sure did trigger my bengang-ness! when i was waiting at the pedestrian bridge for my transport, i leaned the drawing cone with the t-square against the railing. I wus standing on the bridge of the pedestrian bridge meaning one story high. I placed my books on the floor n jus decided to have a nice time to just breathe n chillex frm the bad day. my arms were aching n i was of course as usual sticky n sweaty frm an entire day at coll. and then.. and then… the WORST thing (so far) involving my STUPID T-SQUARE happened. well.. the drawing cone containing my assignments.. n t-square lost its balance n fell between the metal railings- 1 STORY TO THE GROUND. and NOT just the ground.. but INTO A BIG DRAIN!!!!!!!!!!I immediately rushed down the stairs n had to climb INTO the drain which was deeper than my waist. Thank God n good thing i wasn’t wearing a skirt (phew.told u skirts r troublesome) n the drain was dry (yay!) so i picked up d drawing cone. n my father called so i had to cllimb out of the drain while trying to answer the phone.. n when i walked to his car.. i was inspecting the damages. A  huge deep dent on the base of my drawing cone, a HOLE on the base as well.. , scratches n my t-square didnt break miraculously but it had lotsa scratches on em(THE CURSED BLACK HANDLE). and mind u dat my drawing cone is only 2 days old… T-T. Yanoe what.. technology n design should fix this t-square problem. now im very very reluctant to EVER bring it to coll again till the day i have a car n can comfortably chuck evritin in it. =.=’

        I feel like =(.

      Today was like an ideal day for me!! First of all i didnt have to carry around my dreadful sketchbook (yessh im sorta getting sick of drawing rite now) which contains my assignmentsssssssssssssssss (7 assignments in one cny week!) which kept me awake till early mornings, eating up into my free social time. And college finished at 12 so i actually got to go home early, usually i’ll be staying back in college almost everyday to do assignments (assignments again!). Oh and SHU LYN ACTUALLY SMSED ME OUT OF THE BLUE TO CHAT FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME WITHOUT ANY PURPOSE!!!!!!The moment i stepped into my house, i immediately rinsed my face ( blemishes are starting to pop up and to reappear like daisies~) removed my contacts and yess to top up my day i had SPAGHETTI for lunch~ Spaghetti in my home for lunch is like the highlight of the home cooked meals every week. eventhough it is very uniquely prepared.. the sauce has golden mushrooms (the ones wif looooong stalks used in steamboat) the mee.. is not the typical one but the thin angel hair mee n my maid cooked the cheese instead of melted it in the microwave (crunchy cheese stil rocks?) n a sunny side up fried egg~~ all mixed together in my plate while i walap em like the goood old times (never manage to eat lunch at home most of the time for weeks) while watchin sum random show on tv. Right after washing up i immediately rushed to my room and had a NAP … (ohhhhhhhh it feels sooooo goooood!) and then 2 hours later i had driving lesson. This time my instructor was in a good mood and we started chatting while i finally master the clutch. Guess what? The next lesson which is this fri i will be DRIVING TO PUCHONG to train woooootz n driving tru highways n roundabouts eventhough my engine still dies sometimes. Omgoodness all the other cars soooo beter avoid me XD.

             Things just started to fall into place after that. Sue mae smsed saying her class finished early so we can play frisbee together (exercise!i hadnt exercise in like forever since college started) so i was so happy and before going for frisbee.. i did what i consider wuld complete my day. I sat at the piano n played my favourite songs which i mastered last year n learned Fantasia Impromptu (my dream song) , the first 1 n a half pages n played it again n again. It sounds so cool! And then i played the VIOLIN~~ n can almost play all the notes in my song in tune now. Yay i hope my 18-year old violin teacher would teach me vibrato now.. on my 4th lesson muahahahaa.

                   When i just left my house to walk across the highway to meet sue mae at the park in usj 4, i bumped into familiar people. My ex schoolmatessssssss!Sung Lin, Cassandra, Kenneth n Wei Shen were on their way to Andrea’s surprise bday party. After havin a short chat wif em, i crossed the highway n met sue mae. We had a nice loooooooooooooong chat to update each other on college life. Eventhough we’re on the same campus we rarely bump into each other as our schedules are very different. It was a nice chat on our coursemates, ex schoolmates, r*** (hahah) n we talked so much for 2.5 hours non stop. Now i found out why talkative sue mae doesnt really talk soooo much when she chats with me one on one, its because she likes to listen to me blabber randomly! And i was like.. sue mae! Start a topic cause I’m getting tired of talking so much!We were talking n laughing so loud (or more of i was) that you could probably hear us from a large distance..And oh And the great thing bout going to a park when ur college is that you know that those guys playin sports there are in secondary school cus many guys stop playin outdoor sports daily once they’re in coll so u dunt have to worry or even care what they think of you~ you’d be like *ah younger guys only mah.lol*

                  When i walked home i was feelin all happy because for once in a long time im not flooded with assignments, i wus snapping my fingers n whistling tone deafly ( sadly im tone deaf when i whistle compared to when i sing!) while singing the cute version of Don’t Worry, Be Happy..while bobbing sideways to sideways but i toned down when passerbys were near so that i won’t be considered a freak~

                 And then i got home, had another nice dinner, touched up on my assignments and called Shu Lyn up for a chat over the phone after sayin early nites to zq tru sms.  I love talking to shu lyn on the phone cus she would be blabbering alot while i can talk less for once! (roles reversed wif sue mae) and i told her bout the interesting people i met in my course.. i started of with my course only. I told her how I.Z. is a blur-straight-to-the-point-laid-back kinda guy n how I.Man is like totally clicking wif me and bout Bra. Oh my goodness… i miss bra bein around so muchhhh in my course.

           Well im not talking bout bra bra but bra! you get? He’s like such a funny,nice guy who can crap his way out of any situation and i noe that if he met si onn, both of them would be buddies like darren n othniel kinda buddies. Bra’s fav words are KERIS, RASUAH and VIRUS!! Lemme explain. Whenever topics on politics or the word msia comes out of the lecturer or anyone, he’d immediately shoot without thinking… YEALO ALL RASUAH WAN. RASUAH WAN LA! and then in malaysian studies, my lecturer asked a question: Why do the Malays keep falling to the Portugese again n again? n Bra would immediately reply : * cause they GUNA KERIS!KERIS!KERIS!* in his funny automatic response kinda way and a malay shot him a DIRTY LOOK. And i would be like hissing :* psssssssssst bryan!!!!!!! there are malays in the classs!* and then he immediately shot out the word *oh sorry* n quickly looked back down at his book or poker cards for that matter.(my lecturer for msian studies is purely blind.) And during lunch, we diploma aka diplomats sat down together n he wanted to try sum of our other friend’s food n he would be like *eh make sure your spoon dont touch.. i dun wan KENA VIRUS. SURELY KENA VIRUS WAN* n he’d repeat the word virus to evrione he wants to try food from lol. and i wus like.. * Bryan… do u have O.C.D? (obssesive compulsive disorder) n he replied.. *oyeaho… i think i got abit!*n den he saw a small strand of hair in his porridge n went like * Oh no got hair yuck. Surely got VIRUS.. i tink its mine oh wait maybe its the kakak’s who made this yerrrrrr her armpit hair all fall in got VIRUS!* swt…

          To cut the loong story short.. he decided to change frm architecture to a levels. The first day of coll after cny holidays, Isaac came to class n told us that Bryan wasnt gonna come today as he went to main campus to check out a levels.. Immediately my heart dropped to the bottom like a heavy rock. I wus so emofied n d class was wayy duller without him. Its like he’s the colour to a black n white drawing!n summore he said that he would give proper notice if he was gonna change course because b4 cny he tought of switching but in the end decided to stay… that night i called him for the first time n he said he wasnt so sure if he was coming college the next but i forced him to come for one last time. so the  next day.. he still didnt come.. i wus so disappointed but already anticipated it. I passed bra’s farewel gift to isaac to pass to him cus they live nearby each other. In lunch break however, Bra came but late as usual n i signaled to isaac to just pass him d present there n then. When isaac held out a small flat square wrapped thing without saying anything.. bryan immediately retreated back n stared with a intimidated face at isaac (they both like to pretend to be gay partners) n isaac jokingly said *yeah i so good, i give you wan* n bryan had a disbelief look on his face n said *eh.. you serious wan a?* den i said *nolaaaa its frm me (while laughing really hard) n said *isnt it like normal for guys to give guys present when one is leaving or something?* n both isaac n bryan immediately shot back together *NOOOOOO!* bryan then said he at first thought it wus a condom frm isaac!=.=”"”"”"”"”"”"”"”"”"”"

      We then decided to climb up 8 stories by stairs, (isaac’s brilliant idea to celebrate bryan’s last day) n bryan wus nice enuf to hold my bag 4 me~ by the time we reached the eigth floor i wus so lenguh at my legs! see… i hadnt execrcise for a looong time.. my stamina gone d!n den we entered the drawing studio for design com n bryan sat at his usual seat while we all chatted normally n den he left early to go main campus for a levels ting n he said he would come back at 4 later which he didnt. So i didnt manage to give him a goodbye hug n he formally said his farewel by thanking me for the present n sayin he had a fun time spending time n laughing at me =.=’

      We all really miss him! when aisyah found out he changed course she was like *damn him!* haih… he wus like a big brother kinda figure to me although i dunno him that well yet.owel i really hope he’ll keep in touch despite disppearing sumwer else as always =S. So for those of you who are goin to a levels 2nd intake dis year in taylors, make sure u get to noe him. He’s a great guy =)

                  Yanoe what is my new new year resolution? To maintain a SOCIAL LIFE! We diplomats are in desperate need of one! Evritime class is over most of us just rush home asap to rest s we’re often exhausted wif assignments X S.So in the end Shu Lyn had to go off the phone n i would continue my update wif her bout more new intresting college frens ive met n catch up on the secondaries sum other time. and she bid me gunite wif a *Night Sock * XD haiz miss the old days. Shu= shoe n Chok= Sock.. so Shoe n Sock r in a love-hate relationship 4eva =D

               Can u believe how FAST evriting is zooming by? in a blink of an eye its already feb… God plsssssssss slooowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww down timeeeeeeeeeeeee!Gtg sleep d.. nites =)

walking in this small town,where my dad spent his childhood days, it seemed busy only for this chinese new year moment but somehow, despite the cars from other places and the buzzing noises of people talking, the town still maintained its special peaceful vibe. It was as if the trees and the breeze soothed the noise pollution of firecrackers and chinese speaking people.

              Today in the afternoon, i strolled from the hotel to the taiping lake garden to pick a scene to sketch (college assignment). I sat on this old stone bench and studied the scenery of century old trees which stretched their large branches across the roads to the lake, dipping their leaves slightly on the surface of the water and forming an ancient curtain to seperate the hectic roads from haven. The calm lake showed another dimension of the world, reflecting the plots of greenland on the lake. As the majestic trees shaded me from the warm sun, i took out my sketchbook and began to record that very sight of my life unto solid paper. Drawing the outlines and filling in the details, curious passerbys would stop to stare for a brief moment before walking on to snap pictures.

                Feeling slightly lazy and tired, i decided to lie down on the bench for a moment with the sketchbook on my lap. ‘ People are so gonna think i’m weird but oh well, i’m not from around here anyway!’ As soon as my head layed on the chair, something TERRIBLE happened.

                 A sound came crashing unto the muddy soil and I jolted up instantly. ‘NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!’MY SKETCHBOOK FELL UNTO THE GROUND!!!!!!!!!! The soil smudged my drawing and my other drawing got slightly folded, my flexi eraser rolled unto the soil, picking up bits of brown dirt on its sticky surfACe!I’m totally a clutz.. anywer i go! The drizzle of rain started to fall and i returned to the hotel asap.

             This cny has been quite fun! Although my cousins n i are slowly losing touch wif our niece n nephews as they r growin up n cant reali speak eng ( we used to bond tru games) my cousins n i wasted no opportunity toh have some cousin time! we all stayed in the same hotel n went over to their room to play cho tai ti (my sis n i). strangely,i kept gettin nice huge cards linked together n evritime i got my cards i would ask my couz: eh u nvr shuffle properly ke?’But sadly im not too good wif strategy iq stuff so i didnt win evri round. Think i had sum gud *fung sui* wif my cards though! lol. In the middle of playin, suddenli the door opened n this tall guy in red shirt n cap peered tru. He came in casually n i looked at him.. never seen him b4.

    ‘ hi harvey’ my cousin albert n my sis greeted him. Turns out, he’s their ex schoolmate who’s the only child n parent’s hometown in taiping too n his relatives r mostly married so he’s so bored n oh he stays in same hotel too (taiping’s kinda small).

     If he were to be a japanese, he would be voted japanese heart throb! He has nice quite sharp features.. oval face with slight pointed chin with fair skin n sparkly dark slit eyes. His long fringe sweeped to the side a lil n when he smiles he flashes his straight white teeth n a slight dimple. and all this, i can describe in two words….. *SO PRETTY!* (yes shu n joel, if ur reading dis u’d be rolling ur eyes n going.. she never changed… haha)

    Anyway, we went to taiping sentral ( the 1st modern shopping complex n cineplex in taiping which just opened 5 months ago!) n hung out there, bought movie tickets. Somehow we ended in the show Inkheart n the show can be summarised in 2 words… *IT SUCKS!!!!!* The plot n storyline wus original.. but the acting, directing, camera, script,flow of story n ending wus TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, AMATURE-ISH N CLICHED. this is the worst show ive ever seen in the cinema.. i actually raised one eyebrow frm time to time n wanted to doze off n wanted to walk out halfway! I looked at my cousin alvin who was frowning at the screen.I was so bored that i smsed to chat n it started to be freezing cold for me!I wus shivering n my friend suggested tru sms to go hold on to sumone. Well i wus seating between pretty jap boy n cousin.. to cling on to any of em wud be.. awk-ward.

             After what it seemed like forever.. the most horrible movie ive ever watched in the cinema ended.*YES!* We walked out unsatisfied except for my sis who said the show rocked (SWT) n harvey who said it wus ok (but i dunno if he was sarcastic or not).

             We went back to the hotel room to play cho tai ti (again) n bluff. i won in cho tai ti again cus my cards were not shuffled well! (aGAIN haha.. strange day). den we watched shutter tru my couz’s laptop since i recommended it. we offed all the lights n squeezed unto the bed. The last time i watched the shutter i wus FREAKED out for life. It wus in the cinema wer i screamed my heart out!!!!!!

              That was bout4 years ago.. (wow) but this time it wusnt s scary s i remembered but the plot stil rocked. But when it got to the scary part i would be freak out n prepare my self.. tensing my hands until harvey glanced and smiled teasingly at me. he had his hand ready by his side for me to grab on to but of course i wouldnt do that cus i just met him!n he doesnt even noe my name hahaa. soon the movie ended n my guy cousins liked the plot but they felt that ju onn was 10 times scarier (i wna watch it!) but now dey got phobia of dumping n mistreating girlfrens lol (shutter story plot).

             This short break was nice. I got to buy a gorgeous pair of shades n other stuff (shopping! wootz) n also got to take time off to clear my head.Im starting to get a clearer picture on drawing the line frm the guy i like as he has a gf (i found out onli after liking him) n now im on a more casual basis wif him s frens. Thank God! i dun wan the same ting s last time to happen again..

                  I also confirmed that i really have almost no sense of direction. i got lost in taiping town few times today while walking! how embarassing. gtg now, sis wants to sleep haiz. till then, ciaoz

Its been totally ages since i blogged! Normal for a lazy girl like me =D. well… lets start with the last day of spm.

   SPM…. i really screwed up biology paper 3 so i try to move on and the last paper was accounts, 4 days after the science students end theirs if they last take est! It wus a shocker, accounts. All the spotted questions in tuition didnt come out but the tough ones did! So anyway i actually manage to IMBANG my document!that’s like the 3rd time i imbang-ed in my life since form 4 without needing to correct i tink. Anyway.. i wus looking anxiously at the clock and contenging on my accounts paper as a message to my mortal who will inherit it =p. After that, me, ann ee, angeline n si onn went to ice skate which wus not as fun as i remembered it to be because we were more focused on ice skating than chatting XD. I actually fell down, dragging down an innocent lil girl wif me. and the sad part is when i fell i wus sumhow waiting for a split second for sum random guy to pick me up! lol.. of course the always helpful skaters on duty helped. then.. joel joined us n we went to watch twilight and by some WEIRD coincidence, i met yat zhoong while walkin up the stairs in the cinema room itself n turns out he, ju n a few frens were in the same theatre too! and ju happened to sit RIGHT in front of me so i gleefully put my feet on his chair (habit) =p. twilight wus like so romantic-ish.. can feel the chemistry between edward n bella. But the sad ting is, edward wusnt hot. Carlisle was soooooo WOW! anyway when edward tried to hit on bella, leaning in on her with his arm rested on the window sill i tink i wus like * ewww ewww! please wax!!(his arms r like a jungle!) n he kept lookin at bella like he wus grimacing in pain, tinkin of eating her up. well the show would have been BETTER IF IT WASNT FOR JOEL N SI ONN MAKING RANDOM COMMENTS ESPECIALLY WEN SI ONN WUS CRAPPING DURING THE CLIMAXES OF ROMANTIC SCENES!i kept hittin si onn n tellin him to shatap lol while he kept on crappin. Ju’s fren wus so pissed at the noise pollution that he wanted to turn around n say SHUT THE F* UP 0_0.

  Next stop.. christmas! I organised christmas carolling together wif sue mae for our youth n the musicians n i had our 1st practice (jus us 1st) in Jo’s house. My mortal brought his violin n OMGOOOODNESSSSS…….. the sound of his violin wus SO BEAUTIFUL that i immediately fell IN LOVE wif it. wen i played it i almost CRIED because the sound was jus.. BEAUTIFUL n melancholy-ish( wateva dat means) n mellow-ish. then he played his violin spontaneously to us singing carols n he has talent. it wus as if he prepared at home which he didnt. I want his violin sooooooooooooo much! the sad tiing is, he wont lend me cus he says *his violin is like his life* n it costs 10 000+. =.=’ if i were rich i wuld buy a violin like dat next time. anyway, carolling wus reali fun.. on the 1st nite sumhow we got served GREAT MEALS like CRAB,SATE,LAMB,LASAGNA,SPAGHETTI,MUFFINS… den the 2nd nite wen the christmas play people joined it wus all just kuih muih muahahahahaaa. we had fun bonding n spreading bout Jesus’ bday! n in the bus, julian or rick wuld play the guitar while we sang along to it.. jason miraz i’m urs, jonas bros (to mock em) n all. and then… the xmas play. OH i SERIOUSLY APPLAUD YEN YI for being brave n a GREAT ACTRESS!

     time seemed to zooooooooooom by like in a snap of the finger. b4 i knew it it was 2009.. its like WOW! on the 4th jan, josh,jo,rick,wen jun,yen yi,yumey,sue mae,brandon n me went to watch bedtime stories. josh,jo,rick n wen jun (breathe!) were watchin it for the 2nd time cus they loved it soooooooooooo much. after dat we went to hang out n jam in rick’s music shop. no wonder why he can play lotsa music instruments! there r the drums,keyboard,guitars in there. oh n i saw his violin but i didnt play it.. dun wan him to have to show his skills to the rest if he didnt want to. he didnt bring the violin up anyway.

    The night before college. I wus freakin nervous bout steppin into n entirely new world.. wer i barely knew anyone especially in my course. the sad ting is.. im in diploma in architectural technology (DAT) but 4 of my frens who enrolled into architecture enrolled in foundation! SO UNFAIR.. i wus like sum loner or sumtin. you see, DAT has been around for more than 10 years n is REALLY established n recognised worldwide (Esp aus n uk) but taylor’s created a new one called foundation. its so that the students stay in taylors for 4 years, not 3 like us. more $ ma… n then taylors kept SERIOUSLY promoting foundation like crazy.. they offered so much scholarships n onli promoted it on open day etc. anyway in the end… DAT onli has 17 PEOPLE while foundation has… 67!!Imagine dat. oh the first day, i hung out wif the subang utamas! min shen, inez n sue mae. n mei ling whom i met in CLIOD joined us too. it wus ceramah after ceramah after ceramah for orientation for 1 whole week.. imagine dat huh. the first 3 days, girls mainly mixed wif girls n guys wif guys. i felt so.. unfancied n uncolleged. Majority dyed their hair… make up.. dress up n all while i just didn dye my hair n wear norm clothes. my permed hair.. like i permed it in mid dec but it tak jadi.. it turned out S-shaped instead n messy, dry n poofy! man….

  Anyway, the first DAT i met wus germaine. n den.. well hung out mostly wif the foundations cus they were evriwer. wenever any diploma met a diploma dey’ll go HAPPY! on the friday, we SABD (school of architecture, building n design) went to kl to do sum team building activity. we went to central market, to annexe in a reali gorgeous looking room wif extra high wooden ceilings n yellow spotlights wif wooden floor. i got to know nikita, aisyah n cindy who r frm DAT too! dey’re reali LOUD FUN n talkative. OH… if u can imagine a group of girls talkin bout guys, they wuld be the champion lol. they can talk forever bout guys, so entertaining. we were split into groups n had games n all.Then they split us into smaller groups n my group were frenli wif each other. there wus Aisyah wif me.. den i met zeng quan who wuld be the *wait for u to approach him den onli he starts gettin frenli* kind, nicholas the ever intresting talkative guy, aiman frm DAT too who’s got charisma, talkative n interesting artistic points of view, sum peeps frm dubai n middle east (yes taylors has lotsa foreign people) like mohammed who looks jamaican, peyman n nasir n ders more. anyway, all groups had to walk around kl n get inspiration for the theme The Invisible City. Our team had nick who’s the *tour guide* since his school is in the heart of kl. Oh well we walked around n then sumhow ended up in a reserve jungle in the middle of kl (!!) in bukit nanas, passed tru back alleys etc den after sum brainstorming in a pondok filled wif mosquitoes in the JUNGLE where u culd see kl buildings s well.. we got an idea! *TING*. Oh it wus cool dat we felt like the weirdish art people (so proud!) n we went back to the annexe to work on a piece of artwork wif paint, cardboards, magazine cut outs etc. Our group had a lil bumpy start on the artwork since there wus soooo many ideas evriwer! den we just aiya lets just work on it. i found out I TOTALLY DUNNO HOW TO PAINT cus wen i painted sumtin on the cardboard, zeng wuld be like *OH!* n quickly touched up on it, changing it almost entirely T_T n no one wanted me to paint on their parts! lol.. oh well. anyway, we managed to finish in time but our art piece was ONE OF THE WORST. lol.. other groups’ were like beautifuly painted (oops on my behalf) n 3d-ish like. surprisingly, our group won 1st.. wootz. cus our presentation n theme hit the bullseye! OUr definition of the invisible city wus the neglected parts of the city such as the reserve jungle, graffiti on the wall, ignored wavey roof n lanterns in petaling street, homeless beggars n dirty back alleys. more often den so wenever we tink of the city we immediately tink of shopping, traffic, advertisements, glamour etc but we forget bout the *uglier* side, (back alleys, beggars etc) we forget that those also makes up part of the city. so tadaa! u hav ur invisible city.

    Anyway, monday came n for the first time, we got to meet our classmates. there’s all kinds of interesting people! for eg: BRYAN who’s a REAL joker. he n si onn wuld have surely been best buddies! Bra (his nickname) actually wrote *KOLEJ TAYLORS, school of homosexuals* on his assignment drawing (we had to draw the campus) n drew a man jumping out frm a building wif a parachute against the sky ( i suggested jokingly.. swt) n he still got A. lol.. cus our teacher is abit uh… not so observant on tiny fonts. remember, in her class we shuld look at things like THIS , not like THIS  (*wink*).

    Nicknames came up for the foundation n the diplomas since we hang out together during breaktime. The FOUNDIES n d DIPLOMATS! oh.. there’s this gorgeous ROOFTOP garden on the 5th floor dat we hang out in during breaktime. we even played frisbee n heart attack+ truth or dare, occasionally disturbing the kurnia insurance office people who culd see us tru their window on the same floor. i had to cover my face wif all my hair n walk like a ghost past their window while nick had to pretend to pee by the side of their window! talk bout college kids lol. once awhile, we went to play pool (yes there’s a pool/snooker place in campus~)

   im slowly adjusting to college life. the 1st week of lectures, i had a vomitting feelin almost evriday! lost my appetite like crazy.. now i know why, it wus actually the cigeratte smoke in campus evriwer. many people smoke in campus bluek! we’re starting to bond as frens n i get to be myself aroun em now. oh, one of the best ting bout architecture is no one is competing tru textbooks anymore but TALENT. talent in drawing, creative ideas etc.For once, results are not so predictable n der’s great competition as wen u draw sumtin, u tink ur drawing is soo beautiful but the lecturer wuld put evrione’s work side by side infront of evrione n comment n mark rite der for evrione to see n den u’d be like *oh crap mine sucks* n i’ll always smile wen i tink dat =D.oh i met people who have stuff in common wif me. aiman is like the male version of me n my buddy! He loves to sing, likes theatre n talks animatedly. Isaac loves classical music, bryan loves contemporary ballay-ish lyrical jazz-ish dance, zeng quan loves pool,singing, was a horrible monitor like me n well.. im still a banana whom the chinese speakin people love to tease jokingly =p.

     I just wanna keep the spark in me, being myself so that all who have known me will always noe me. well.. gtg! have to wake up earli to do assignment project wif group members tmr.. hope that palace of golden horses allow us to make a documentary on the building materials in the hotel!till den, ciao

          Well i take ktm almost evriday now dat im startin to get sick of it.. but i coincidently met si onn in the station once n in the train once wen i walked in  n he coincidently stood at the door. WA!! it feels soooooo gooood to meet up wif old frens. i met up wif jo zee (to return her sis’ violin which i borrowed), edmond n yi won (while i went to holiday villa to swim but anyway it wus raining so i culdnt) on seperate occasions. Now im flooded wif assignments, so far i have more than 10 in two weeks! crazy. n den.. oh i started violin lessons too in a music center near my place but my teacher is STRANGELY MY AGE =.=’. in the first lesson it wus lil awkward (i wus also unhappy dat i didnt get an experienced teacher) but i just came back frm my third lesson n he’s not so bad after all n we click. but it still is bit awkward to have a violin teacher my age lol.. he wanna commment on my mistakes also abit weird loh same age mah haha.

    so as i move on in this new chap of my life, i hope all wuld go well.. there’s so much more that i malas to type here but the next time i blog which wuld probli be months frm now… um.. i’ll do a LUMPSUM recap like dis lol. i’m so not meant to blog!

I was awaken by the vibration of my phone not long after i tried to sleep at 11.30. It turned out to be a phonecall from Louis- wishing me happy birthday!sumhow he called at 11.48 (guess my hp’s slow). Smses started flooding in n i just smiled. I stared at my phone.. 11.58.In 2 minutes time, 1st of July will come. All i did was stare at the ceiling in my dark room talking to God in my head. This is it… another year older.

I didn’t expect today to be any different at all =). Everything went on pretty normally counting the fact i woke up 30 minutes late. I didn’t even feel the need to celebrate.. its just another normal day right?But i was kinda surprised and touched once again when people actually remembered my birthday, wishing me happy birthday and shaking my hand. I have no idea how many times i said thank you n shook their hands back =S.

In prayer meeting, Ms. Tan said a prayer for me and in class my classmates sang happy birthday eventhough Sung didn’t come (he usually starts the singing). I just felt really happy cause i usually think that i don’t mean much to others =).

Before recess, Shu Lyn asked me if i wanna teman her to the PR to get sum stuff. I eyed her suspiciously saying ..’okay…?I thought you never walk with me during recess… how come suddenly one?”

” I just ask you teman onli mah… since its your *birthday* and all”

” whatever you say…”

(two thumbs up) ”okay?okay!”

She put on the calm smiling face of hers while we both walked to the pr.While walking along a long corridor, i peered down to the pondok where i usually have my recess and could see people fumbling with lighting candles. Busted!

Not wanting to ruin their effort, i played dumb and just acted like i didnt know. I walked to the pondok and was actually surprised to see around 30 of my friends gathered there.. with 3 birthday cakes( yess.. 3!) lighted with candles. They all sang happy birthday and i looked at everyone of them i could and smiled.. thanks guys so much. It really means alot to me!The cakes were bought by :

cake no.1 : ange n nez

cake no.2: kuan zee

cake no.3: ann ee and edwin

I was pretty dumb cus i forgot to make a proper wish b4 blowing out the candles.. =S. if not i could have made 3 wishes!haha.We all had plenty to eat.. they gave me 3 pieces and i was giler stuffed to the point i couldnt even finish the last spoonful of secret recipe cake (fed it to edwin). Some of us then posted for a picture but Joel’s camera died the moment the photographer clicked it so the pic tak jadi =.=’.

I just got a call from Stephen as well. It’s been a loooooooong time since we talked.

I came to a realization on how childish i can be to friends who don’t seem to be around often. I always got angry with such friends and try to erase them out of my life. But i now realise that every friend will disappoint you in some way and every single one of them cant be there 24/7. No human is perfect at all. If you’re going to be angry at friends who really cause trouble in the friendship its natural. But if you’re going to keep that anger and bitterness inside of you for a long long time, it’d only destroy yourself. Learn to let go of the disappointments and move on… do not expect too much out of a person. Accept the fact that your friend is bound to let you down at times. And when they’re around, appreciate them as much as possible and learn to give but not expect anything back. I wanna fulfill my responsibility as a friend to others so that i will not look back wishing that i could have treated them better and not take them for granted. To all my friends, I’ll always be grateful for you, even if it is just being with you for a short period of time. Thank you so much for the sweet memories you have blessed me with today.. =). God bless you all!

CAN YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE I SPENT ENTIRE 1 HOUR PLUS TYPING AND IT ALL DISPPEARED WITH ONE CLICK?!?!??!?? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!and just the other day i wus about to type preview after finsihing my post when my father switched off the wireless…. =.="""""

Anyway i shall retype allllllllll over again. T-T.

Basically my life has been tough as usual. More on friendships. Friendships are so important in our lives. It moulds us, shapes us and supports us. But it can also put us on emotional rollercoasters. Mine surely did. For me, i used to be really close to this guy. We’d chat over the phone for hours till 3 am or so and share alot with each other. I felt comfortable being myself around him and all. At that time it was a mutual agreement to be good friends. BUt he always wouldn’t call, sms or even contact me unless i do first.Not even a happy birthday or so. It left me confused, whether i mean anything to him at all. I told him bout dis n he apologised and promised to call evry week but his promises were empty. Not keeping in touch was bad enough but making a promise you never keep in a friendship is probably more disappointing. I finally made a decision to not contact him, seeing if he’d bother to contact me. Months pass without a word. It was painful for me but after months of trying to let go and with help from someone along the way i managed to let go in the end.

     When i went for subang rally, it was weird to bump into him. Of course we chatted as though nothing happened but deep down inside i know not to get back into where i was before. He had disappointed me alot in the past. I didn’t hang around with him to be careful. Instead i hanged around with my other friend who coincidently came alone for the night concert too. Waliao he was giler flirty to me. =.=" good thing im not naive (thank God im not like a form 2 girl anymore) so i took his flirting lightly and knew it didnt mean much cus he jus flirts with any other girl as well. But he was nice and i didn’t really mind his company cus i knew him since form 2. He flirted so much (ladies man) to the point that ann ee thought he n i were together =S. She told me she felt like slapping him but did not dare to just in case id scream at her *What are you doing?!? he’s my BOYfRienD!!!’wOrse case scenario?haha

            The next night i was surprised when i received an sms from my friend whom i finally let go off. He asked me how was i doing and stuff. I chatted awhile wif him n finally told him that ive let go of him and become a stronger person =).

            If you put toooooooo much hope in a person you’re bound to get disappointed. Many girls have the mindset that their bestest friend must always be by their side 24/7 evritime they are together and get jealous when someone else gets close to their best friend. I believe that its time to mature from that mindset. You cant keep evrione by your side and as close as they are now to you forever. Friends really do come and go but the true ones will stick around. you cant expect them to be as close as they are to you now forever though.Letting go of someone’s probably the hardest part. All those memories you shared together makes you want to cling on ever so tightly eventhough you know its time to give them their space. Eventhough your friendship may be so complicated. Letting go her doesnt mean totally dumping them aside but having a mutual agreement to give each other more space or the worse= going your seperate ways which you will have to face sooner or later.

      I admire those who really leans and trust in God through ups and downs. They are the truly strong people as they hold unto Him although people discriminate them or talk bad bout them behind their back. We shouldn’t condemn people for their belief. Eventhough we might not totally agree with everyone’s belief, at least do respect them. Same goes to people who act in a way which causes them not to be accepted by society. Remember, they are humans just like you.

              Id also like to say im proud of my mortalo!Eventhough he may be an insensitive jerk sometimes, he’s still kinda loyal, actually keeping in touch although not super often but at least he still does. We became angel and mortal through the game angel mortal in my youth camp when i was form 3. This game requires you to be an guardian angel to the person’s name you randomly pick. Means throughout the camp you have to do nice stuff for your mortal without him or her knowing who you are. Anyways he is two years younger and at that time he was form 1. He is a lil bit more mature then his other two buddies of the same age and sometimes he can say really sweet things. Honest and kinda straightforward too, falls for older girls SOMETIMES. (hahahaa funny experience right sue mae?) He doesn’t like admitting he’s wrong too lol. It really makes me happy that we still keep in touch cus usual angel and mortals don’t even say hi to each other after the camp if they don’t really know each other. We only met through the camp too =).I was really proud of him when he told me that he made it into the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra WITHOUT an audition. (violin). Its a really famous orchestra and to make it into one you’d have to be a genius!To my mortalo: I know you’d probably never read this but i just wanna say that as long as i can remain your angelo i hope that we’d keep in touch often -and that i really appreciate you coming into my life. God blez~!