17 already.
I was awaken by the vibration of my phone not long after i tried to sleep at 11.30. It turned out to be a phonecall from Louis- wishing me happy birthday!sumhow he called at 11.48 (guess my hp’s slow). Smses started flooding in n i just smiled. I stared at my phone.. 11.58.In 2 minutes time, 1st of July will come. All i did was stare at the ceiling in my dark room talking to God in my head. This is it… another year older.
I didn’t expect today to be any different at all =). Everything went on pretty normally counting the fact i woke up 30 minutes late. I didn’t even feel the need to celebrate.. its just another normal day right?But i was kinda surprised and touched once again when people actually remembered my birthday, wishing me happy birthday and shaking my hand. I have no idea how many times i said thank you n shook their hands back =S.
In prayer meeting, Ms. Tan said a prayer for me and in class my classmates sang happy birthday eventhough Sung didn’t come (he usually starts the singing). I just felt really happy cause i usually think that i don’t mean much to others =).
Before recess, Shu Lyn asked me if i wanna teman her to the PR to get sum stuff. I eyed her suspiciously saying ..’okay…?I thought you never walk with me during recess… how come suddenly one?”
” I just ask you teman onli mah… since its your *birthday* and all”
” whatever you say…”
(two thumbs up) ”okay?okay!”
She put on the calm smiling face of hers while we both walked to the pr.While walking along a long corridor, i peered down to the pondok where i usually have my recess and could see people fumbling with lighting candles. Busted!
Not wanting to ruin their effort, i played dumb and just acted like i didnt know. I walked to the pondok and was actually surprised to see around 30 of my friends gathered there.. with 3 birthday cakes( yess.. 3!) lighted with candles. They all sang happy birthday and i looked at everyone of them i could and smiled.. thanks guys so much. It really means alot to me!The cakes were bought by :
cake no.1 : ange n nez
cake no.2: kuan zee
cake no.3: ann ee and edwin
I was pretty dumb cus i forgot to make a proper wish b4 blowing out the candles.. =S. if not i could have made 3 wishes!haha.We all had plenty to eat.. they gave me 3 pieces and i was giler stuffed to the point i couldnt even finish the last spoonful of secret recipe cake (fed it to edwin). Some of us then posted for a picture but Joel’s camera died the moment the photographer clicked it so the pic tak jadi =.=’.
I just got a call from Stephen as well. It’s been a loooooooong time since we talked.
I came to a realization on how childish i can be to friends who don’t seem to be around often. I always got angry with such friends and try to erase them out of my life. But i now realise that every friend will disappoint you in some way and every single one of them cant be there 24/7. No human is perfect at all. If you’re going to be angry at friends who really cause trouble in the friendship its natural. But if you’re going to keep that anger and bitterness inside of you for a long long time, it’d only destroy yourself. Learn to let go of the disappointments and move on… do not expect too much out of a person. Accept the fact that your friend is bound to let you down at times. And when they’re around, appreciate them as much as possible and learn to give but not expect anything back. I wanna fulfill my responsibility as a friend to others so that i will not look back wishing that i could have treated them better and not take them for granted. To all my friends, I’ll always be grateful for you, even if it is just being with you for a short period of time. Thank you so much for the sweet memories you have blessed me with today.. =). God bless you all!
