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CAN YOU ACTUALLY BELIEVE I SPENT ENTIRE 1 HOUR PLUS TYPING AND IT ALL DISPPEARED WITH ONE CLICK?!?!??!?? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!and just the other day i wus about to type preview after finsihing my post when my father switched off the wireless…. =.="""""
Anyway i shall retype allllllllll over again. T-T.
Basically my life has been tough as usual. More on friendships. Friendships are so important in our lives. It moulds us, shapes us and supports us. But it can also put us on emotional rollercoasters. Mine surely did. For me, i used to be really close to this guy. We’d chat over the phone for hours till 3 am or so and share alot with each other. I felt comfortable being myself around him and all. At that time it was a mutual agreement to be good friends. BUt he always wouldn’t call, sms or even contact me unless i do first.Not even a happy birthday or so. It left me confused, whether i mean anything to him at all. I told him bout dis n he apologised and promised to call evry week but his promises were empty. Not keeping in touch was bad enough but making a promise you never keep in a friendship is probably more disappointing. I finally made a decision to not contact him, seeing if he’d bother to contact me. Months pass without a word. It was painful for me but after months of trying to let go and with help from someone along the way i managed to let go in the end.
When i went for subang rally, it was weird to bump into him. Of course we chatted as though nothing happened but deep down inside i know not to get back into where i was before. He had disappointed me alot in the past. I didn’t hang around with him to be careful. Instead i hanged around with my other friend who coincidently came alone for the night concert too. Waliao he was giler flirty to me. =.=" good thing im not naive (thank God im not like a form 2 girl anymore) so i took his flirting lightly and knew it didnt mean much cus he jus flirts with any other girl as well. But he was nice and i didn’t really mind his company cus i knew him since form 2. He flirted so much (ladies man) to the point that ann ee thought he n i were together =S. She told me she felt like slapping him but did not dare to just in case id scream at her *What are you doing?!? he’s my BOYfRienD!!!’wOrse case scenario?haha
The next night i was surprised when i received an sms from my friend whom i finally let go off. He asked me how was i doing and stuff. I chatted awhile wif him n finally told him that ive let go of him and become a stronger person =).
If you put toooooooo much hope in a person you’re bound to get disappointed. Many girls have the mindset that their bestest friend must always be by their side 24/7 evritime they are together and get jealous when someone else gets close to their best friend. I believe that its time to mature from that mindset. You cant keep evrione by your side and as close as they are now to you forever. Friends really do come and go but the true ones will stick around. you cant expect them to be as close as they are to you now forever though.Letting go of someone’s probably the hardest part. All those memories you shared together makes you want to cling on ever so tightly eventhough you know its time to give them their space. Eventhough your friendship may be so complicated. Letting go her doesnt mean totally dumping them aside but having a mutual agreement to give each other more space or the worse= going your seperate ways which you will have to face sooner or later.
I admire those who really leans and trust in God through ups and downs. They are the truly strong people as they hold unto Him although people discriminate them or talk bad bout them behind their back. We shouldn’t condemn people for their belief. Eventhough we might not totally agree with everyone’s belief, at least do respect them. Same goes to people who act in a way which causes them not to be accepted by society. Remember, they are humans just like you.
Id also like to say im proud of my mortalo!Eventhough he may be an insensitive jerk sometimes, he’s still kinda loyal, actually keeping in touch although not super often but at least he still does. We became angel and mortal through the game angel mortal in my youth camp when i was form 3. This game requires you to be an guardian angel to the person’s name you randomly pick. Means throughout the camp you have to do nice stuff for your mortal without him or her knowing who you are. Anyways he is two years younger and at that time he was form 1. He is a lil bit more mature then his other two buddies of the same age and sometimes he can say really sweet things. Honest and kinda straightforward too, falls for older girls SOMETIMES. (hahahaa funny experience right sue mae?) He doesn’t like admitting he’s wrong too lol. It really makes me happy that we still keep in touch cus usual angel and mortals don’t even say hi to each other after the camp if they don’t really know each other. We only met through the camp too =).I was really proud of him when he told me that he made it into the Malaysian Philharmonic Orchestra WITHOUT an audition. (violin). Its a really famous orchestra and to make it into one you’d have to be a genius!To my mortalo: I know you’d probably never read this but i just wanna say that as long as i can remain your angelo i hope that we’d keep in touch often -and that i really appreciate you coming into my life. God blez~!
